Promises unkept

I say to myself "i´ll never take any drugs"
but the more i think of it, i wonder why
Why cant i take drugs, why cant i get high ?
well i know i know the answer " i dont wanna die!"

But i know many people taking crack and coke
the only diffrence is, i only smoke
I know it´s wrong, but i still think it´s okay
i dont know why, i just cant say